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Achilles

by Kerry Logan

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Now what is happening to us in here? It seems that we couldn't win again! Maybe this music-competition night Is just a part of 'The Great Hype' No, I'm not bitter - I'm just twisted We feel you robbed another innocent Of the prize to get through undenied Or - maybe we did just suck on the night? Image - yes image! It's a good point indeed 'Cos if we ain't got what you want, then it's exactly what we need! How much more do you think we could bleed? You know, I've heard you can cure everything with a leech "Uninspired and no interest" Does that encapsulate our style the best? "A little bland and maybe poor at best" Don't criticise too hard - you may need a rest! What of the clothes that we wore on the night? I'm glad a label would make us 'sound' right Hear me out - try for once - close your eyes And see how the music don't need no sight?! I could put curses in my verses, but it might come out much worse as Just some silence - we should try this - but, our clothing's not a s nice as All the winners (and the spinners) - Korn, Linkin Park, and Limp Biskit So, Adidas Stripes on us would make us a musical genius? If the purpose of this year's event Was to find another copy at best Then you all get a pat on the back 'The Great Hype' found another one like that!
2.
I'm insanely falling out of line I'd better rate each step I take along 'Cos I might end up walking out of light How terrible for the dark to be my home You're all I need Confession time: I don't get it right All alone I am a degrader of my mind I struggle much, my wrong replaces right To say I do burns bits of me inside Your all I need I've told lies, not once, but more than twice Ingested filth will not stop at your eyes
3.
Superpatriot 04:19
I can't expect the men to win You know before they do begin What I will laugh about When it does come around Your inability to dream... You won't allow yourself the faith Why do you follow anyway? You don't deserve to see Them all in revelry How have you justified this rage? I'm just watching my men demolish you (Take) apart the opposition and mercilessly too I'm acknowledging the Superpatriot And when we're finished there, they're gonna bury you The vision recycled once again Tall poppies being cut about the stem If you could voice some power A million men would die this hour But, who of us would be your victim then? Moan all game unto a friend Moan until the season's end Cheer when the boundary's past And cheer when we win at last Then moan like we'll never win again!
4.
I don't understand how Your love still seeks me Why should You care for a 'Dark One' like me? What's that You said? You want me dead? Tell me do... "Hold on to My hope Lest you say goodbye To My hope and you leave The light that I provide" What could I say of Your love that freed me? How right You are when you say, "you need Me" I haven't cared Except in my head Help me through What is this fire within me? It burns away inside I feel my soul completely It always used to hide It finds a goal within me Though it pushes me to fight It might just save my life
5.
Regression 05:16
I don't know (how) it slowly takes control It bubbles up inside and hollows out my mind All I see is what we used to be Every moment clear - I'm all alone I fear Come and see my mental home movies I never am the star - the villain though by far A good day can slowly waste away And all that it takes (is) regression into... Regression asks so much of me But, through it I'm finding out who I'm s'posed to be Look hard - the pain disguises the way home I'm growing, can't you see? I'm breathing off misery... My enemy my memory has turned out to be For me to learn and grow - this black pain I must know I will go on - I cannot stay down that long! But, why must it arrive? Regression into... Regression takes a shot at me But would it rip me apart - I won't wait 'round to see
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Skydive 06:21
What's the one thing you need to be pushed out on an airplane? From nowhere, it seems, a weirdness from out of the blue And I want to be this Johnny that covers you I know I drew him - to use you for art seems so natural... ...this is weird - yup, yup, yup, yup... This difference it brings impossibility to everything But, knowing these things, I choose ignorance over truth Can I afford to fit my hand into the hand it's in? I cannot see you as umpteen times around the star we see... ...this is weird - lightbulb, lightbulb... "This is weird", she sings - It isn't normal to want this to be But, this gravity - a type where Isaac has no clue And I want it to be right so that it is weird no more But, it is weird and I cower under the cloud I bring!... ...this is weird - goodness gracious me...
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Arise! Shine! Words full of warning! I feel so wasted inside My eyes are closed Though I wake in the morning My heavy disease pulls my soul from the sky This is my life To do as I like The sun frowns on this one truth The body is fine But the mind, it is yawning Oh, to feel healthy inside To earn this life Is our basic calling I’m failing at that and losing its prize This is my life To do as I like The sun is eating this one whole How I have lost The idea is dawning In the business of wasting the mind No longer am I Living and walking I Play the Station and watch the Sky This is my life To do as I like The sun screams at this one ‘Grow’! How long has there been something wrong? I’ve been ‘just to busy’ for too long I’m feeling so tired living in this messiness My choice is to fail or be strong… Arise! Shine! Like the sun in Jerusalem The glory above is shining on you! Other places Will be in the darkness But in the light you will be and He will be with you too This is my life To do as I like The Son shines on this one soul
8.
Got no time for silly words I need that sweet venom right through myself Need it so much that it hurts I know without it I'm losing my mind My dependence surreal This addiction is sweet to the taste Without it how could I feel? No - my body can't function alone Plug it into my arm! I don't need food or air to breathe The void into my veins I am in love... The hole I was given inside The uncontrollable passion I squeeze in its place I defend no longer - I'm making you stronger You're fixing my woe as I'm fixing on you The ecstasy that burns me inside I'm seeing such colours I've never seen before I want this addiction for life This is such perfection - its such flawed perfection "You shouldn't have touched me For now I'll never want to let you go..." Now that my senses are spoilt Every taste from now on is wretched and plain The residue of that sweet, sweet absentee You'll never reclaim that old innocence The hit is wearing away I tried to fill the hole with an absence of shape If I'm to recover there must be no other In love...
9.
Burnt into me those coloured scenes I remember these things They stay in my mind like glue Those eyes of yours glistening I could not doubt a thing I was stuck on the idea of you It doesn't take long For a spark to flame into... Could I really be A crucial part of you and me? The more I'm drawn into This whole big mess with you You more become a part of me I more become a part of something you I remember it all so clear The customary fear Gave way long enough I believe the time was right Once we shed our sight No other light could get through It never takes long For a spark to flame into... Could I truely be...?
10.
Once comfortable in my Bag-End Hobbit hole Never a feather in the wind Up to my door, a Wizard and a swag of dwarves Singing these songs that drew me in To the ‘Green Dragon’ of all places I run to meet these strangers’ faces Wondering who they think I’m s’posed to be We went on in spite of the rain And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Leaving my home for a mountain far away We were nearly run in by some trolls To Rivendell, the last homely home here in the west How could we bring ourselves to go? To the Misty Mountains – to the Goblin King At Gollum’s hand, I found the ring In the tunnels I thought I’d die for sure But I ran out into the sunshine again And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Being rescued from the perils in pursuit The Eagles brought us to their homes In the Mirkwood dark, we lost our way And the evils there would have us stay But we refused to have it so We left the forest into the world of men And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you At the Longest Lake, with the Men of Dale This Dwarven King, these men do hail Our goal is near, we feel it so To the Lonely Mountain we look to go Through the Land of Smaug, we make our trails For the good of all, this Dragon must be slain And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Proud stands the mountain; we brave the Dwarven Door Inform the Dragon he must go Mighty Smaug is slain by the Men of Dale – a fiery death Though their greed sends them to war the throne But the goblins come, evil is sworn The Five Armies, they wage a war Heroes come and heroes fall The good triumph – the quest is done! And we look to journey home It’s good to be in Bag-End again And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you
11.
Gone. Confined to the past I had placed it here There was no more to fear Try to breath again... I could smell victory! I must leave the memory! I hadn't counted on you coming back to insert yourself into my mind The day of days was hollowed out I can feel the sensation coming back... Snatching defeat from the jaws of victory Regression it asked so much of me Waiting for it just to fall in front of me Regression it asked... Would you be the last? I must learn this past Another hear broke too fast I must make this learning last... I look up and look in There's no way out of this mess, unless I cease to regress "Hi" rubs salt in the wound But, the wound is closing to - there's not much the salt can do! I recommend to anyone a feeling just like this But, I've grown up and out No longer will I live this creed
12.
The world becomes anew More now to grow into As the old me begins to die It will not go without a fight It claws at my insecurity “It seems that they wanna take my blood from my veins Test me in every way so I can prove that I can try In all my years I have never had this cover on my aims Must I stain you again? Please tell me why?” It’s all growing up No matter how hard it gets A part of you will live and a part will die… Don’t forget there’s much to learn after a fall Don’t forget to be bigger than your glow I was once safe at home but now not so Don’t forget to remember what you know Step into the unknown Make a little more my home Now the old me is losing life To save itself from ever night It preys on my insecurity “Everyday I live the routine again Stand against this would and with my fist defy What attitude? It’s just I can’t stand this place I turn my back on it as I head inside” It’s not a hate It’s just hard work instead This ‘attitude’ that lives – it now must die Don’t forget there’s much to learn after a fall Don’t forget to be bigger than your glow I was once safe at home but now not so Don’t forget to remember what you know How would I have been here if I were alone? How would I be without you? I'm not alone... never alone... Never once left...
13.
Heaven Sent 04:08
Heaven sent, it's been a blessed meaningful Heaven scent is being a blessed meaning, full Evanescent, it's been a blessing - mean in full
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Once comfortable in my Bag-End Hobbit hole Never a feather in the wind Up to my door, a Wizard and a swag of dwarves Singing these songs that drew me in To the ‘Green Dragon’ of all places I run to meet these strangers’ faces Wondering who they think I’m s’posed to be We went on in spite of the rain And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Leaving my home for a mountain far away We were nearly run in by some trolls To Rivendell, the last homely home here in the west How could we bring ourselves to go? To the Misty Mountains – to the Goblin King At Gollum’s hand, I found the ring In the tunnels I thought I’d die for sure But I ran out into the sunshine again And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Being rescued from the perils in pursuit The Eagles brought us to their homes In the Mirkwood dark, we lost our way And the evils there would have us stay But we refused to have it so We left the forest into the world of men And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you At the Longest Lake, with the Men of Dale This Dwarven King, these men do hail Our goal is near, we feel it so To the Lonely Mountain we look to go Through the Land of Smaug, we make our trails For the good of all, this Dragon must be slain And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Proud stands the mountain; we brave the Dwarven Door Inform the Dragon he must go Mighty Smaug is slain by the Men of Dale – a fiery death Though their greed sends them to war the throne But the goblins come, evil is sworn The Five Armies, they wage a war Heroes come and heroes fall The good triumph – the quest is done! And we look to journey home It’s good to be in Bag-End again And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you
18.
I'm insanely falling out of line I'd better rate each step I take along 'Cos I might end up walking out of light How terrible for the dark to be my home You're all I need Confession time: I don't get it right All alone I am a degrader of my mind I struggle much, my wrong replaces right To say I do burns bits of me inside Your all I need I've told lies, not once, but more than twice Ingested filth will not stop at your eyes
19.
I can't expect the men to win You know before they do begin What I will laugh about When it does come around Your inability to dream... You won't allow yourself the faith Why do you follow anyway? You don't deserve to see Them all in revelry How have you justified this rage? I'm just watching my men demolish you (Take) apart the opposition and mercilessly too I'm acknowledging the Superpatriot And when we're finished there, they're gonna bury you The vision recycled once again Tall poppies being cut about the stem If you could voice some power A million men would die this hour But, who of us would be your victim then? Moan all game unto a friend Moan until the season's end Cheer when the boundary's past And cheer when we win at last Then moan like we'll never win again!
20.
I don't understand how Your love still seeks me Why should You care for a 'Dark One' like me? What's that You said? You want me dead? Tell me do... "Hold on to My hope Lest you say goodbye To My hope and you leave The light that I provide" What could I say of Your love that freed me? How right You are when you say, "you need Me" I haven't cared Except in my head Help me through What is this fire within me? It burns away inside I feel my soul completely It always used to hide It finds a goal within me Though it pushes me to fight It might just save my life
21.
I don't know (how) it slowly takes control It bubbles up inside and hollows out my mind All I see is what we used to be Every moment clear - I'm all alone I fear Come and see my mental home movies I never am the star - the villain though by far A good day can slowly waste away And all that it takes (is) regression into... Regression asks so much of me But, through it I'm finding out who I'm s'posed to be Look hard - the pain disguises the way home I'm growing, can't you see? I'm breathing off misery... My enemy my memory has turned out to be For me to learn and grow - this black pain I must know I will go on - I cannot stay down that long! But, why must it arrive? Regression into... Regression takes a shot at me But would it rip me apart - I won't wait 'round to see
22.
What's the one thing you need to be pushed out on an airplane? From nowhere, it seems, a weirdness from out of the blue And I want to be this Johnny that covers you I know I drew him - to use you for art seems so natural... ...this is weird - yup, yup, yup, yup... This difference it brings impossibility to everything But, knowing these things, I choose ignorance over truth Can I afford to fit my hand into the hand it's in? I cannot see you as umpteen times around the star we see... ...this is weird - lightbulb, lightbulb... "This is weird", she sings - It isn't normal to want this to be But, this gravity - a type where Isaac has no clue And I want it to be right so that it is weird no more But, it is weird and I cower under the cloud I bring!... ...this is weird - goodness gracious me...
23.
Got no time for silly words I need that sweet venom right through myself Need it so much that it hurts I know without it I'm losing my mind My dependence is real This addiction is sweet to the taste Without it how can feel? Now my body can't function alone Plug you into my arm! I don't need food or air to breathe The you into my veins I am in love... The rush that inhabits my mind The uncontrollable passion that beams from my face The world is no longer - I'm making you stronger You're fixing my woe as I'm fixing on you The ecstasy that burns me inside I'm seeing such colours I've never seen before I want this addiction for life This is such perfection - you are such perfection "You shouldn't have touched me For now I'll never want to let you go..." Now that my senses are spoilt Every vice from now on is wretched and plain The residue of that sweet, sweet absentee Can I ever fix on anything else? The hit is wearing away My memory attacks me with views of my pain I fail to recover, she is like no other In love...
24.
Burnt into me those coloured scenes I remember these things They stay in my mind like glue Those eyes of yours glistening I could not doubt a thing I was stuck on the idea of you It doesn't take long For a spark to flame into... Could I really be A crucial part of you and me? The more I'm drawn into This whole big mess with you You more become a part of me I more become a part of something you I remember it all so clear The customary fear Gave way long enough I believe the time was right Once we shed our sight No other light could get through It never takes long For a spark to flame into... Could I truely be...?
25.
Once comfortable in my Bag-End Hobbit hole Never a feather in the wind Up to my door, a Wizard and a swag of dwarves Singing these songs that drew me in To the ‘Green Dragon’ of all places I run to meet these strangers’ faces Wondering who they think I’m s’posed to be We went on in spite of the rain And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Leaving my home for a mountain far away We were nearly run in by some trolls To Rivendell, the last homely home here in the west How could we bring ourselves to go? To the Misty Mountains – to the Goblin King At Gollum’s hand, I found the ring In the tunnels I thought I’d die for sure But I ran out into the sunshine again And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Being rescued from the perils in pursuit The Eagles brought us to their homes In the Mirkwood dark, we lost our way And the evils there would have us stay But we refused to have it so We left the forest into the world of men And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you At the Longest Lake, with the Men of Dale This Dwarven King, these men do hail Our goal is near, we feel it so To the Lonely Mountain we look to go Through the Land of Smaug, we make our trails For the good of all, this Dragon must be slain And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you Proud stands the mountain; we brave the Dwarven Door Inform the Dragon he must go Mighty Smaug is slain by the Men of Dale – a fiery death Though their greed sends them to war the throne But the goblins come, evil is sworn The Five Armies, they wage a war Heroes come and heroes fall The good triumph – the quest is done! And we look to journey home It’s good to be in Bag-End again And may your beard grow long and true Somehow we found our way there and back again Oh, but no prize was worth it without you
26.
The world becomes anew More now to grow into As the old me begins to die It will not go without a fight It claws at my insecurity “It seems that they wanna take my blood from my veins Test me in every way so I can prove that I can try In all my years I have never had this cover on my aims Must I stain you again? Please tell me why?” It’s all growing up No matter how hard it gets A part of you will live and a part will die… Don’t forget there’s much to learn after a fall Don’t forget to be bigger than your glow I was once safe at home but now not so Don’t forget to remember what you know Step into the unknown Make a little more my home Now the old me is losing life To save itself from ever night It preys on my insecurity “Everyday I live the routine again Stand against this would and with my fist defy What attitude? It’s just I can’t stand this place I turn my back on it as I head inside” It’s not a hate It’s just hard work instead This ‘attitude’ that lives – it now must die Don’t forget there’s much to learn after a fall Don’t forget to be bigger than your glow I was once safe at home but now not so Don’t forget to remember what you know How would I have been here if I were alone? How would I be without you? I'm not alone... never alone... Never once left...
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I can't expect the men to win You know before they do begin What I will laugh about When it does come around Your inability to dream... You won't allow yourself the faith Why do you follow anyway? You don't deserve to see Them all in revelry How have you justified this rage? I'm just watching my men demolish you (Take) apart the opposition and mercilessly too I'm acknowledging the Superpatriot And when we're finished there, they're gonna bury you The vision recycled once again Tall poppies being cut about the stem If you could voice some power A million men would die this hour But, who of us would be your victim then? Moan all game unto a friend Moan until the season's end Cheer when the boundary's past And cheer when we win at last Then moan like we'll never win again!
30.
I don't understand how Your love still seeks me Why should You care for a 'Dark One' like me? What's that You said? You want me dead? Tell me do... "Hold on to My hope Lest you say goodbye To My hope and you leave The light that I provide" What could I say of Your love that freed me? How right You are when you say, "you need Me" I haven't cared Except in my head Help me through
31.
Burnt into me those coloured scenes I remember these things They stay in my mind like glue Those eyes of yours glistening I could not doubt a thing I was stuck on the idea of you It doesn't take long For a spark to flame into... Could I really be A crucial part of you and me? The more I'm drawn into This whole big mess with you You more become a part of me I more become a part of something you I remember it all so clear The customary fear Gave way long enough I believe the time was right Once we shed our sight No other light could get through It never takes long For a spark to flame into... Could I truely be...?
32.
The world becomes anew More now to grow into As the old me begins to die It will not go without a fight It claws at my insecurity “It seems that they wanna take my blood from my veins Test me in every way so I can prove that I can try In all my years I have never had this cover on my aims Must I stain you again? Please tell me why?” It’s all growing up No matter how hard it gets A part of you will live and a part will die… Don’t forget there’s much to learn after a fall Don’t forget to be bigger than your glow I was once safe at home but now not so Don’t forget to remember what you know Step into the unknown Make a little more my home Now the old me is losing life To save itself from ever night It preys on my insecurity “Everyday I live the routine again Stand against this would and with my fist defy What attitude? It’s just I can’t stand this place I turn my back on it as I head inside” It’s not a hate It’s just hard work instead This ‘attitude’ that lives – it now must die Don’t forget there’s much to learn after a fall Don’t forget to be bigger than your glow I was once safe at home but now not so Don’t forget to remember what you know How would I have been here if I were alone? How would I be without you? I'm not alone... never alone... Never once left...

about

In 2000, I moved to Wellington in order to pursue music with more intention, the resulting band Shift being the vehicle with which to do so. This increased focus on music led to more songs being written to add to my catalog, some which made it as far as the band, some which did not, but by the close of 2001, I had a new group of tracks that were both symptomatic of my new focus and some of my best writing to date, easily matching the golden period of '97-'98. Fast forward a coupl'a years to after the breakup of Shift and my only solo projects, and some of the songs from this era became staples of my acoustic set which I would use throughout the next few years before setting into recording properly for myself.

2006's Acoustic Graffiti is my first solo album, an audio record of who I was as a writer and performer at that time, and this album Achilles is effectively what that first album would have been if I had begun straight onto fully recording it. All the tracks on this album were fully written by 2004, making this offering at its very least 15 years in the making.

The tracks on Achilles then come from a time when I was really focusing on a quality of songwriting, as well as the courage to try different ideas in order to challenge myself. It's representative of my best era of songwriting, although it even grabs a couple of tracks from my other dominant era ('97-'98) to bolster its ranks. When I first settled on the goal to record everything I had ever written in 2009, I purposely blocked this selection of songs off to save until the very end, endeavouring to make this collection not only one of quality, but to use it as a carrot to completing my goal. Some 26 releases and 10 years later, I am finally here - and, with just one album to go (the future Regression Suite album), my goal is all but assured.

When I saw 2004's Troy, I loved the power of the character Achilles so much, that I knew I had to use that name, hence the album title. The cover was painted many years ago by my wife Jo before we met and I loved it so much, I have used it here.

This album represents my best era of writing and its arguably my best recorded album. May you enjoy it as much as I have enjoyed making it!

credits

released August 6, 2019

Kerry Logan: guitars, acoustic guitars, bass, piano, keyboards, programming, kazoo, and vocals. Bobby Logan: drums. Neil Hearn: bass. Andrew Yorkstone: trombone. Mark Weir: piano and keyboards. Matt Henderson: piano. Choir: Meghan Grant, Susanna Graham, Karen Allen, and Josh Cody. Shift Demo: Kerry Logan, Mark Weir, Bobby Logan, and SuperMike White.

All songs written, produced, engineered, and mixed by Kerry Logan, except Regression and Regression II written by Kerry Logan and Martin Galway.

Recorded at SBC and Poto Road August 2018 - August 2019. Drums recorded at Noiseworks, Hawera January 2019.

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