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Dear Diary

from STRGPXI​+​KL by STRGPXI

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I introduced this song to the band, one that I wrote in 1996 during my 20th year and the era of grunge, by saying that it was angsty and whinny teenager-ish. We slowly set out learning the song, but it took a while to get the feel of it. The hook for us came when Pete suggested to Aaron that he try sing it an octave higher, which gave Aaron the spark the song needed and lifted us all to deliver this version.

The song originally was a kind of diary entry of a horrible, empty day and trying to adequately put into words just how low you could feel on such a day. Not an upper.

lyrics

Dear Diary – how are you?

I had a wave hit me today
I was swamped with decay
I had collapse inside of me
It is itching
If I seem to be upset
Just don’t judge on the colours left
I would raise a little smile
If the pain were through
It’s as bad as it could get
I call this pain-feel “walking death”
The title’s grim but true

But I’m not dead
Not yet
I’ve got a fight left in me
I won’t go to forever
with this on my chest
I am mental steel
I aim for bliss
I was meant to take
much more than this

When a smile, it brings you pain
And your head won’t lift again
When you tell a joke it stings
But politely
You smile to make it fact
You get awards for such an act
A minute lasts as long as three
Your thoughts consume you
You become deaf, dumb and blind
You dreams look at you and snide
I feel black

But I’m not dead
Not yet
I’ve got a passion left in me
That will see me triumph
and lay this to rest
I am mental steel
I aim for bliss
I am meant to take
much more than this

credits

from STRGPXI​+​KL, released January 16, 2016
Kerry Logan (guitar), Aaron MJ Curtis (frontman and vocals), David Daman Moore (drums), Neil Hearn (bass), and Pete Wikstrom (lead guitar).

Song written by Kerry Logan, and produced by Kerry Logan and STRGPXI. Recorded at Knox Church on 17 December 2015 on the DR40.

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